Updates

So what's been going on? Well the house still hasn't sold, big surprise there. It is probably the worst time to sell a house, but I need to stick it out for a little while longer.

We got a puppy! Her name is Kaya, and she's a mutt. She's also a handful, but a good dog all in all. She loves chasing my kitty Mr.Man around the house. I am not so sure he is as fond of it as she is, but at least it makes him exercise.

For some reason I have hit puberty at age 34. Go figure. I have been skinny all my life, and people always told me "Just wait until your 30, that metabolism will change." It did when I was 32 and I finally gained enough weight to be in the normal weight range for my height. As a result I actually have boobs now. Going from a 34 not even an A to 36B is pretty darn exciting. I'm not pregnant, I checked. They have just decided to sprout up and check out what the world has to offer. If they stick around I will buy them pretty things to wear. So that's something good that has happened.

My job is nuts right now. I think I'm handling it okay. We'll see how the next few weeks go. Basically when I started in the surgery department I had 3 other techs with me. Slowly over the past few months they have all left. One was fired, one had to move away because of her husband's schooling, and one was offered a better paying job in research. I can understand the last girl leaving for better pay since she has 4 kids (2 sets of twins, I can't even imagine) and a husband who is self employed. Considering they have not hired anyone to replace these people, that leaves me. Granted there are a couple of days of the week where an ICU tech comes in to help me, but still. I'm a little worried as to how all this is going to play out. They are looking to hire someone, but the right person hasn't applied yet. I will cross my fingers and wait it out. Hmmmm, that seems to be a running theme in my life right now.

My back has been flaring up again, which is making me gimpy. I went back to the doc, and I'm back on Prednisone. It worked the first time, it does not seem to be working this time.

So what's the solution to all of life's little problems? Pack up your bags and head to the beach, with the man you love and your cute little puppy. Enjoy the sun on your skin, the sand between your toes, and ride the wave. I'm trying not to worry about things, which can be difficult for me, but I am trying. I am going to let life happen where it has to go at it's own pace, and take control of the parts I can change.

I'm just happy with the person I have become over the past few years. The huge changes I have made have all been worth it. I used to have problems with self esteem, and to a certain extent I still do. That's okay, I'm human. I probably always will, but I know I'm a good person and that I'm loved. That's what counts in the end. In general I'm happy, everything else will work itself out eventually.