The past year

The past year of my life has been one topsy turvy ride. I left Los Angeles and moved to Chicago to be with a wonderful man that I love. Then both of us packed up, left Chicago and moved to Raleigh. Now we are contemplating another move. To where? Well that is the big question. I still own a house in L.A. And we could go back there. It would be a long expensive move. Most likely it would not be forever, which would mean another move would be in the future. That is not appealing to either of us. There has been talk of Denver or Charlotte as well. No real reason for either one of those destinations. We are just looking for a place to call home. A place we can afford to buy a house, and still have money to do other things. It's why we left Chicago. We could never buy something and have any money left over. Okay and the negative temperatures during the very long winter wasn't very fun for me, especially after living in Southern California for so long.

I'm just tired of the whole thing. The constant questioning of where my life is heading or where we are going to live. I want to find a place where we can feel at home and be happy. I don't want to keep thinking about moving. I don't want to keep starting over. I just need to sell the house in L.A. And be done with it. At this point I don't really care how much it sells for. Okay, maybe that's just frustration talking. A decision needs to be made. I am giving myself until the end of the year to figure this out. That's not much time. I have some things that just need to be dealt with, and I've been putting it off. The more I look at Charlotte, the more I think it's really worth checking out. Close enough to my family, with a little buffer in between. Moving to Denver would probably be as expensive as moving back to L.A. I think a weekend trip to Charlotte is in order to take a look around. I don't think either of us really want to stay in Raleigh. It holds a lot of memories for both us, good and bad. I think a fresh place with a fresh start would be nice. Plus it would be nice to take a short trip over the NC border and get real liquor. This ABC store thing that NC has is a little frustrating when you want something top shelf. I'll figure this out, and all will be peaceful again.