It's been a rough time

This past month and a half has been rough. My offer on my house downtown was accepted and I was supposed to close on the 16th, but the current owners have a lien on the house from an unpaid credit card. We are in the process of trying to work something out the banks so we can still buy it. It's more of waiting game right now.

I have had more doctor appointments than I would ever care to have, but hopefully everything will get under control soon. You see I've been trying to get pregnant and when they started to do a work up on why I wasn't getting pregnant they found I have thyroid issue. It's being worked up with ultrasound and blood tests. It's getting better, but my doc wants me to go see a specialist after getting my ultrasound results. I have to wait two more weeks to go see them. Also I have to go see a specialist for the infertility issue next week. Hopefully both doctor appointments will bring about some positive change. At least I know why I've been so tired, and why my hair was falling out. I can stop feeling like I must be going crazy. It will get better, my thyroid will get under control, and one day I'll have the chance to be a mother. I just keep moving forward in the meantime, keep the life I have now in a good place.

I am also trying to get a new job with a better chance for opportunity. I need to be in a place where advancement is available. A place where I can be challenged, and continue to learn.

I just need some change, and I'm doing what I can to bring about those changes. Sometimes it's hard and I can get fatalistic about my prospects for the future. I quickly get over that mindset, and realize that things will change as long as I keep pushing for them to change. I am doing all I can to get my life in a place where I want it to be. Don't get me wrong, I like my life. I just want to be able have my health, a family, a house, and a good job. No one is going to hand it to me, so I have to work for it. I will appreciate every part I achieve, and never give up until I get the life I want.

It's all about being positive, and believing that these changes are possible and deserved. So no matter how hard the past couple of months have been, it will get better. It all balances out in the end. I truly believe that.